In Defense of Food

I know this is totally ”so 2008” right now… but I just started reading the book ” In Defense of Food” by Michael Pollan. So far, it’s AWESOME. First line: ” Eat food. Not too much. Mostly plants.” I mean, isn’t it obvious?! Why the eff haven’t we been doing this? 

Because the food industry, the government etc… (not to get all Michael Moore on you right now) have been just slinging us bullshit for years. Why? Because our confusion is worth a ton of money. 

I love that slowly people are going back to how we are supposed to eat. The Whole Foods, farmers markets, organic everything, and just a going back to the love of and preparation of real natural foods. I myself stick to the outside perimeter of a grocery store, at all times. I have no need to go down those middle packaged aisles. No one does. I have really been enjoying eating well, eating lots of fruits and veggies, and the ceremony of preparing great healthy meals. 

I feel my body shedding weight quite quickly now, and it feels amazing. Not just the weight loss, but eating all these great foods just makes my body feel good. I can’t wait to see what long term changes come from this!

 

Keep that Shit Up!

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I had a GREAT week this week, lost 5.5lbs. I knew it was going to be a good week, because I worked for it. I ate super clean, not letting anything but fresh fruits, veggies, meat, nuts and seeds into my body all week – not even for a mint! I still had my 2 ”cheat meals”, Friday night I had pizza (DELISH) from a cute pizzeria near me with 2 glasses of wine, and Saturday night I had 2 cocktails. I enjoyed all of them as well. I felt amazing all week. I worked hard in my WODs. Just a really good week, and I’m going to keep it going!!! 

 

26 lbs lost! 74 to go!!! 

Every moment…

A very close friend of mine passed away on December 2nd 2013. She suddenly lost her battle with lung cancer just before her 29th birthday. I was and still am heartbroken. We met in high school, hung out all the time in Cegep, went to University together and even stayed close after I moved to New York, she traveled to Australia, met her husband and moved with him to England. I ended our last text conversation 2 days before her death with ” I love you”. I’m so happy that was the last thing I said to her, but I had so much more to say had I known it would be the last time I would talk to her. Actually, I still talk to her, every single day. Sometimes when I think of things that she would find funny, when I need help guidance or just my fucking friend back. 

 

Thida taught me so many things while she was here with us, and even more through her death. I think I finally realized that life is so precious. I know that sounds obvious, and a really lame thing to say. But seriously, through our 20s, I don’t think we realize how precious every single day is. How much we have to appreciate the people we love. Take advantage of everything that we have. We (I) am so lucky to be here on this earth, with so many people that I love. There are hardships every day, my life is by no means perfect. But it is mine, and I am so lucky to be given each and every day. As I’ve said before, I’m trying to move past my fears, to really live each day to it’s fullest. I’m trying new things, meeting new people and doing my best to do all the things that Thida no longer can. I think she would be proud of me for the way I’ve been trying to live my life in the past few months. I’m going to keep making her proud. Thida, that’s a promise. 

Last weekend, our close friends and her family went to bring her to the cemetery for her internment. I couldn’t believe it, the priest gave a service on EXACTLY what I had been thinking and working towards. He went on about how we never know what the future holds, to live each day as if it’s our last. (I don’t really do that, because I think if I lived each day as if it was my last, I would do some really crazy things). But, I tell all the people I love, that I in fact love them as much as I can. I hug my niece and nephew for a couple extra seconds. I try to enjoy all of my experiences as much as possible (still a work in progress!!), because we never really know when it will be our last time. 

 

You might ask what any of this has to do with me losing 100lbs. It has EVERYTHING to do with it. 

Not a setback… but a holdback?!

I got on the scale this morning, and I didn’t lose anything. That means it was a frustrating week for me. I knew I wouldn’t have tremendous weight loss this week, as I only went to CrossFit twice (I know, horrible!!! Trust me, I hated not being there), and I wasn’t as on point with my eating. I had a lot of cravings (stupid excuse) and I even had a poutine (this was after a CrossFit class, walking about 5K in search of food trucks, and finally going somewhere else for dinner at 11pm- I know, bad life choices). I am being kind to myself about this though, it’s a new week. I will work harder. Take those 20 seconds and choose better. 

Let’s do this. (I want a big weight loss push right now, for many reasons, but a very vain one being I’m going to Florida and want to do a lot of shopping. Best thing would be to be as small as possible to get the most wear out of the clothes I buy). Having just re-read that, yes I realize how ridiculous I am. 

Still… 20.5 lbs lost!!! 79.5 to go! 

Insane Courage

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I’ve always been consumed by fear. From what I hear, when I was a baby I took much longer to walk than my twin brother because I was so scared. Growing up I was always scared of roller coasters. Even today, I am still very much a worrier, and fear constantly gets in my way. I have been working towards conquering my fears, or at least not letting them hold me back from doing the things that I want to do. I’ve been thinking about this quote (pictured above) since I saw it about a week ago. I really think that sometimes we build of bravery to mean that we need to live in a constant state of bravery. But sometimes, to move past our fears, to just go for it, and live our lives to the fullest- a mere 20 seconds of bravery will do the trick. 

I think that this also applies to smaller life battles (although obviously those big ones too). Let’s call this whole concept, the “20 second rule”. When I look at it from the perspective of my weight-loss goal, and becoming healthier the 20 second rule just makes so much sense. We make so many decisions throughout the day that affect our health. What should I order for lunch, should I have a glass of wine, oooh there are chocolates on the counter- should I have one, the salad or the burger? etc. etc. You know how it goes. A lot of these decisions are made impulsively (at least in my case), which is why I plan my meals as much as possible. If we took that impulse slightly out of the equation, just for those 20 seconds (and really, I think it’s fair to call that courage), we would make a lot of better choices.

What awe do every day, consistently (our present) is what determines our future. I really don’t want that future to have been formed by fear. I’m going to make a conscious effort every day in battles big and small, from lifelong fears to small choices to take those 20 seconds and be strong and brave. I’ll let you know how it goes, but I have a feeling, this will be good… 

My first 5K!

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First things first, I’ve never really liked running. Probably because I’ve always been horrible at it. However, when my friends Katie and Dave decided to run Color Me Rad, I thought it would be a great idea to join. I didn’t really train for it specifically, I just continued on with my CrossFit. 

I’m really proud of myself for completing the run. I went slow, jogged pretty much and walked at times. My uncle and cousin were probably bored to tears keeping pace with me (I insisted they run ahead, but they are amazing and wanted to stay with me). Speed or no speed, I finished it (in really not all that long at all either). I’ve never done that before, so that is pretty exciting to this running newbie. It didn’t hurt that the weather was perfect, and I got to enjoy the beginnings of summer outside.  I can’t wait to run more ”fun runs” like this one. I don’t think I’ll ever have a desire to go to marathon lengths, but you know what? If I did want to, I bet I could. (What’s better than that positivity?!). 

Here’s to more running! It feels so good to get out there and move! 

I will be blogging my weight loss every day for an entire year. My goal is to lose 100 lbs.